Thursday, April 30, 2009
11:40 PM
Hi,

lol super sian. When i play, i feel damn guilty for not studying. Then i stop playing, but no mood to study, z! Gl lah.

K let's see what i have to blog. I planned out my study timetable already, so this weekend i gotta finish ss hist emath and start on chem. Yes, means i gotta pia. Omg hist killer so many potential questions yo. Should i spot haha. Am very tempted to. If i spot wrongly, then i will just look up the ceiling and ask god why~~~ why on eeeeeeearth did i spot. If i spot correctly, then ... GOOD FOR ME, 天下太平!! Woohoo so, now the question is, should i or should i not spot??? Hmmmmm. Answer is, i shall spot. Or maybe no i shan't. We shall see, we shall seeeeee.

Oh i cabbed home today argh. BUT! It's because i brought home many maaaaaaany books today. Was planning out what books to bring home ytd haha! K lah actually many books just excuse, could have taken bus, -.- but aiya, i'm just trying to make myself feel better~ and i think i really spend almost all my allowance on cab. This week i never really spend, then cab twice + mlb left $10. Oh and i gotta start saving ahhhhhh. I hope my last minute timetable will work, or i die. Let's see, 2 maths, 2 science, 1 humans. I think i will end up winning humans only. But walao that one i scared also -.-

Tmr i shall pia ss and hist. By end of tmr i should finish SS and maybe half of hist. Yes go renice no more slacking, your butt will be paralysed if you continue playing. (sit until numb until paralysed, yo?)

Ho i crapped out a post, bye! :) i think i might be back with more, lol.

Oh yah did i mention i still love Mrs Lam, haha she's super cute today. :D and that reminds me, i should go observe water droplets.



7:59 PM
Wow i totally zonked out at 4 plus and then i just woke up at 7 plus, been so super long since i slept this long yooo. I must have been THAT tired. See, Thursdays are stupid.

Sian.



3:29 PM

Oh, you mean a tattoo? I've already got one, here. Can you see it?

Balls, lessons on Thursdays zap me up lah dong. Can feel the atmosphere in class very tense, esp bio LOL.

Yup k bye.



Wednesday, April 29, 2009
1:23 PM
Omg maths killing me lah shitballs. Save me. So many questions idk how to doooooooo, questions from surds and indices omgness. ;[

Wah i ought to be praised lor, FLU + FEVER + HEADACHE still study kk. Z lol. I rmb how i used to motivate myself last time, sec 2 i think. I will buy junk food, like chips, then i rmb very clearly when i study for maths, after finishing ONE question, i will eat ONE chip, but well i usually end up spamming chips even DURING a question lol. And then there was the one kinder bueno per paper thang. Haha damn lame but eh i was trying to reward myself whatzxzxz! I rmb i pia-ed GEOG for mid years and end years lor. Walao over the weekends i chiong like siao stay in the room make notes make notes morning till night k. I STILL HAVE THEM! Am very very amazed i had the determination to do that. But lol i think i know why. Cause Mrskoh everytime say me, everytime i also get damn low for geog usually fail. So i 拼命 study to PROVE HER WRONG! Lol got B3 in the end, worked? Guess so. :/ argh i want that kind of 冲劲 nooooooow! Roar.

But hell lah i don't know how to do maths z. I keep trying to figure out but cannoooot. And like my answer correct lor maybe is the answer key wrong -.- yeah right, you wish lah noob.


我生病了!
8:53 AM
哈哈大家好,

我今天没有上学,因为昨天晚上我头痛了一整夜,而且鼻子很塞,所以没有睡好。早上起来时我跟妈妈讲我不要去学校,她就帮我量体温,结果发现我有点发烧呢!哈哈 因此我不用上学!

Lol crap. Bye.


Tuesday, April 28, 2009 我没有读书的冲劲
7:48 PM
Hellooooooooooooooooo

i suddenly feel so depressssssssed, cause of paper oneeeeeeeeeeees, oh man oh man. K maybe not depressed, just sianed. Ah i really feel like, taking a break, oh mama, :( but aye, crap lah i havent even started studying at all and i'm feeling tired already. Bloody laaaaaah, i have this really mentally tired feeling. Got a very strong 冲动, k not one, but many many of them. The CD to not study for midyears, after all it isn't counted. But the the thought of staying back for SSS really disgusts me so no i cannot don't study. Walaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaao, damn it lah i don't wanna study already life sucks lah seriously. :( mamaaaaaaaaa. I need some motivation to stuuuuudy. Any form of it is welcome thanks, anything that can get me off my ass and start studying.

Walaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaao, amanda just told me after midyears and prelims still got mock exam, THEN olevel, WALAO! We what, animals ah need train until like that! Oh my mamama, sian.

I wonder how it'd be like eh, hmmm. K no i not gonna think i will become bloody emo. Go renice, go KCKCKCKC. HAHAHAHA i am still thinking abt the PMY during prom thing LOOOOL. -.-

K i am still depressed ZZ. I need happy pills. I need motivation. I need a break. Gosh. :( i wanna cry. I'm sick flu headache i'm wallowing in self pity i feel so goddamn pathetic yo. Zz suckballs renice when are you gonna prove yourself huh, noob z.

BYE. ROCKET BUILDING IN PROGRESS.



3:19 PM
Quoted www.pleasefindthis.blogspot.com

And if you look a little closer, you'll see that if a person believes that life is terrible, they’ll constantly look for proof of this, to confirm their view of the world. They’ll find quotes and situations and events in their life and magnify them a hundred times.

If a person believes that life is wonderful, they’ll look for the corresponding signage and behave in a similar manner to the previous person with their view of the world.

Often, this is the same person on different days of the week.



3:02 PM
Helloooooooo

paper 1 today and i did something damn risky z. I went to do argumentative lah aaaah. Walao totally mindblock-ed during english. Wanted to write about what you wanna change that one, but then lol i didn't know how to go abt writing leh haha. To think i was still blogging about it ytd, omg! But aiya crap i am scared lor i would never ever have chosen that stupad Q5 if i had other choices, argh! ><>

Think chinese was find. Almost did 议论文 but lol i was lazy to think of points haha! So did 报章 in the end. Write until hand so pain -.- well ended up with 20 mins extra and i was there thinking how nice if i could transfer this 20 mins to hist/ss LOL! Crap.

And i really am falling sick already. Walao i keep sneezing throughout both papers eh, super irritating. Then my nose keep running super duper irritating. Haha and then py and i walked in the rain down hill, good job renice! :) and so i was all translucent and cold with bloody screwed bangs and deformed bra (LOL i am lazy to elaborate).

Kk bye i wanna go sleep already.


Monday, April 27, 2009 dam
9:24 PM

Me and my egg.
My egg and I.


Hello i think i should do a proper post. I got alot of things i wanna type but nawl i shall do a proper post first.



K so friday we went for MLB concert i think i posted abt this already. Lesson learnt, no tube to concert LOL. Met at 7 at eunos, and then to cityhall for shokudo, my egg pasta is yummy. Sy's salmon one was not bad too and xm's potato is tasty. Camwhored alot and i hate it that i look so candid in candids. -.- ahaha btw i was stuck in a dilemma once again. Because we went into hula & co on the way to shokudo, and i saw a very nice grey-pink tube dress and i was suuuuuper tempted to buy it with my week's allowance. But then it's $30 so like if i buy + eat dinner i will only have $10 for the whole week, including cab fares home (already cabbed home today CAUSE OF THE EHADACHE, not anyhow de k). So as i was already deciding to buy, i change my mind and had starbucks instead. Ice white chocolate mocha (?). Weehee. And then the concert proper was rocking. Oh my mama i got so high when they sang 你快乐所以我快乐. Some mroe encore at the end then we were jumping like crazy bitches. Our row only we jump so zz. -.- but aiya nvm. So then we went to the rooftop terrace. Like hey i finally found it, FINALLY, like after so long. I rmb trying to find it since 25th may aaaaaargh. Proves that no fate means really no fate haha! But lol it wasn't very pretty either ~~~ lala i am performing the art of self-consolation ~~~~ but heck yo. Then momma came to fetch me and hooooome we were.

Saturday, went to trim my hair! WALAO I MUST SAY THIS, SATURDAY WAS GREAT HAIR DAY, seriously! :D haha cause the hairdresser help me blow until straight straight. And then went home and got ready for dinner. It was like 5 plus already. And then set off for kaima's house, as usual they were damn slow lah -.- oh we were supposed to go celebrate rocio's bday. So left for Conrad and the buffet there sucked lah so little to eat, i think the dessert even more than the food yo! But lol the salmon was goooood, great. And the toilet was conducive for camwhoring too. ;) waited for everybody to finish and then we went for kbox. Me mel cybil russell rocio. My contacts were. On the verge of drying up and cracking already lah. K-ed till 1230? Haha it's still more fun k-ing with NC! At the very least i dont care even if i zao sia, HEH! :P luuuuuuuuurbs. Went back to kaima's hosue, slept till 10 plus and then lazed and then 12 went for tuition zz! But eh tuition was fine leh. Ms tay make chem sound so easy -.- but lol i agree, by the time olevels come we will be all so b. sick of chem already. Which is good actually.

Today, as i said, pretty much damn sian. The guilt set in again, superglued its ass on me, having trouble removing now z. Those thoughts popped up again i got scared again but LOL i slept woke up watch BWDGX and then i think i'm okay. But lol i still got things to say.

我是个不容易满足的人. But i am easily satisfied too. See so contradicting lah, it's no wonder i'm always stuck -.- k let's put it this way. For the moment, i will be satisfied, and then slowly, because i got what i want already, i will start to want more, and mooooore, and more. Well human nature lah but 未免 too predominant in me le ba? :/ but eh, i believe i was worse last time. Which actually doesn't mean anything lah. The world's damn what lor. If you improve, it will be, Oh 是应该的, what's the big deal. But if you deprove, well people'll see you in bad light, like tsk, no good. Which is! NOT FAAAAAAAAAAIR. Seriously suck yo! K no link lah random. So as i was saying, i am susceptible to greed. Haha chim ba, Mrs Law was our acting english teacher today, ;P

So i've finally got what i wanted yo. Finally. I rmb how much i cursed and swore and sompah-ed that no matter what i will make things better. K it's finally getting better already, i think. Maybe it's too early to judge and maybe it can't be concluded under this kind of conditions when its partly cause of . And i gotta do what i said i would. I AM doing it.

Lol this particular song just played and i suddenly am reminded of KC. Haha working well as a distraction, keeps me occupied fairly enough.

But actually, i wonder what kind of person i actually am. Lol, my inner self and outer self. I really doubt i'm as simple as people think i am. Idk, who knows i might be a scheming slut, with bloody loose morals, selfishly self-centred, blah blah. Maybe it lies deep in me. My own actions, make me see that maybe i'm not such an upright person as i think i am. Hmm, idk! I really wonder, to what extent will i go to to get what i really want, even if i really don't have the wish of harming anybody in the process, and i accidentally do, will i stop? Or continue, just so that i can get what i want. Lol. I said i was susceptible to greed, didn't i? Howell, i think i've been to very very large extents to get what i want in this already, but i know it's too far out there it's not even in my court already. I don't know if i've hurt anybody in the process but aye, i keep bumping into walls, those bruises on me are enough already lor. I think i like to find trouble. Okay not like, i tend to find trouble. 我明明知道 i will get into trouble by doing this, i will still do, because i dont wanna miss the chance if it improves the situation i'm in. And if it doesn't work, i will still keep trying. Try try try try dont know how many million times i still won't believe and try again. Until one fine day when i finally realise, when i finally am enlgihtened, then i will let it go. Stupid right. But howell that's me. Maybe i'm fated to always learn lessons the hard hard rock solid hard way. Very pain but lol, i don't really have a choice huh?

And lol been thinking, i cannot be a government official, this susceptibility to greed of mine will kill me, for sure. Haha i know i am a b. biased person, it's super difficult for me to 公司分明. I WANT to de lor, but most of the times its really 心有余力不足 k. I usually will try to be partial but then that urge to be biased is super overwhelming so i will just succumb to it. Hey it's easier to give in to temptaion than fight it what riggggght. Well but sometimes i can be really gl and purposely be biased. That one, haha purposely so i have no reasons to justify it, :)

Hahaha, okay bye. Super long post ah!



8:44 PM
Ahaha, 百万大歌星 is damn funny lol.

HAHA. Renice you suck LOL. Kk byeeeeee, :D



5:51 PM
Wth it's back again mofo. Gosh what is wrong with you bitch. And yet again another reason to ZGDL, shit you lah seriously.


life sucks much
2:49 PM
Baaaaaaalls,

been feeling so super uncomfortable today. Weather's super humid, been having headache since morning, contacts very dry today and i feel like puking. Gonna fall sick already i can feel it in my throat lol. Pretty sian for the whole day because of the ehadache. And i thought maybe i should end it all now and then nobody needs to bother already. It suddenly occured to me that it's out of r that things are happening and idk, maybe i'm wrong but balls i rather not have it this way if i'm right. Well that was a passing thought. But still, appreciated. Very much.

Shall study for paper 1 and chem at 6. Yes 6.

Bye.


Sunday, April 26, 2009
7:56 PM
Everything lives on as long as you remember. But once you've forgotten, it rests in peace.

Argh it's bugging meeeeeeeeeeeeee. Idk whether it's because i feel guilty for over reacting in this matter and affecting other people or because i should've kept it to myself and solve it myself and then let it sink down in history. Oh mama i feel like crying. Maybe i should just get it over and done with and concentrate on my books huh. But it'll be too early. Z you're bloody screwed renice.


Saturday, April 25, 2009 contemplate
1:41 AM
Oh my mama i am still awake.

So late already but it's still so super hot -.- the earth's dyingggggggg yo.

School today was fine. Chem test after school was brought forward to during chem lesson, lol. And then emath test second period, then double bio omg died. And then recess i forgot what i was doing lah then eng Mrs lai came in and she dragged the lesson till like 1? -.- crap.

We had kittens in class today lol. Very funny keep meowing during lessons. There were 4 i think.

Oh balls i hate the weather seriously, ZZ. Let it raaaaaaaaaaaaaain~

K bye.


Friday, April 24, 2009
11:34 PM
There'll always be another mountain and i'm always gonna wanna make it move. Stay strong.

Ho it was great, :) the SB era songs remind me of youtube (lol); the new album songs remind me of how touched i was when i received it; Lei reminds me of walking down hill with joelle, reminds me of how i went so crazy over these 3 guys, reminds me of that very night when i turned on the radio wishing i'd hear the song and i really did, and so i fell asleep happy. Really happy.

Lol i realised i get touched damn easily. Ahaha i still feel how i felt back then when i received that yellow yellow album. No i saw it lying on the CPU and i knew it was for me haha! -.-

Aw but then these songs from the new album remind me of how i felt that sense of impending doom after 1010. I'm feeling it too now yknow, but thankfully it isn't as strong, even though it feels even more real than then.

BUT MLB REALLY ROCKS. :) there's this sense of actuality in them leh idk how to describe but ho nvm yo. They're good. And now even sy switched sides and agree that wq's good. ;)

Haha okay i think i'm gonna stop here. $28 for an hour is bloody ex but lol, it didn't really matter much. :D


Thursday, April 23, 2009
8:26 PM
感伤. I always tell ppl it's not fair that _ so open now but lols, to start of, the basis of comparison isn't even the same. But i still think it's bloody unfair.

But HOWELL heck i gonna mug like a crazy ass it's gonna be aaaaall worth it. Htm, imma go for it. For once it seems like i found my goal already. All the boutique tai tai crap, lol.


Oh KCKCKC, it won't be fair if i said it now huh. Because the force of attraction is still greater than the force of repulsion than the force of attraction. K i think only i will understand that sentence lah but YO, whatever, seriously whatever. Lol i'm not even supposed to fall into that hole, it's just distraction.

Am seriously worried. Lol seriously what will i do if it comes true. It's already 40 now lah, how.



6:24 PM
If nothing else, one day you can look someone straight in the eyes and say
"But I lived through it. And it made me who I am today."

Surprisingly, today was bearable, rare for a thursday yo. Lessons just pass and pass and pass. But it was bloody hot and idk why i keep breaking into cold sweat. Been thinking what will happen, if really trouble's brewing/already brewed. I don't really know. I don't even know if i am gonna make the morally right decision, or the decision i think is right. But ho, till then till then. Oh man i'm on my own this time but nawl it can't be that bad lah huh. I won't die. Ahaha i think i'm freaking myself out yo.

I studied for chem test ytd, whoo? So rare i study so early! :)


Wednesday, April 22, 2009
5:14 PM
Seriously, i haven't been so upset for a bloody long time. Long time since i just cried and cried and cried looking at the bloody chatbox. Yeah i can never be like her, i can never ever do taht. I don't even think i was like her before. How did it happen then? Magic? I know you will read this post but just keep quiet again doh. Not knowing that i tried to change doesn't mean i didn't try to. You'll never realise how much effort i put in to try yo. In actual fact, you were the one who screwed it up for me yo. With all the talk on SDGBOBFF, normal blah blah ending up as empty ones. Who messed it up? Hmm? Before you say i've been doing too much, think of how you've been doing so little, too little doh. You always get the final say. Every empty talk just ends with a SORRY and that's it i can't do anything anymore i'm tied. Cool, power of an apology, i think i witnessed it more than anybody else.

But just rmb what you said. CB, and the change. Wait and see k. Gonna make your eyeballs pop and then stuff them into your nostrils. Aw i will help you put them back after that. Peace peace. World peace once the change has been done. No more empty talk i will bloody hack you into pieces. Serious.

Py, it's time i start work yo. The work you took 7 months to finish. Love you. Determination. Bestie can just go and die lah. Zz.

Peace be with me. I seriously hope i'm really just over reacting huh. But no it feels. Real.

Today is a soppy day. Tmr will be better because i say so.



4:37 PM
I feel like ponning tmr. But there's chinese test, zz. Wanted to today but cause thought got lab but in then end he also never cooooome -.-

School blues home blues life blues all blues i'm bluuuuue.



3:21 PM
Ahahaha i'm scared. It feels so much worse than that time cause so much has changed. Gosh seriously it's even more pain than how i rmbed it to be lah. What does that mean yo. Bloody. But so what so what, can be solved can't it. That's what you get renice, for using _ to fill those afternoons. Good job. Slut.

I seriously hope i'm just pms-ing lah. Been feeling highlyirritable, very sensitive, very prone to tears, very very emotional today. Freak you.


Monday, April 20, 2009
7:11 PM
JBXJ, how can i not be tempted to go roam around yo. It's one of those days i envy everybody else except meeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Oh suckballs lah.



6:32 PM
it's one of those days i wish i could do anything without being pulled back by circumstances. bloody down.



6:13 PM
Hahaha it's another of those days when i feel like there's nothing more to life that's worth being happy about. It's another of those days i wish i had extraordinary support + strength. It's another of those days when i wish i wasn't so dumb stubborn. It's. another. of. those. stupad. meaningless. days. Gosh save me.


Sunday, April 19, 2009
9:40 PM
Lol, relieved a burden from myself.

And i guess for once i'm right not to believe what ppl say yo! You douchebags out there. I think i finally know what made things go awry back then. Because it became the opposite of why it all started, didn't it. Haha a sense of knowing, profound, profound. But! Lol typical renice behaviour lah huh. Like finally (!) i get what happened. But sadly (!) i was 4 months late. Ahaha, but then again, better late than never. At least now i know whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhy.



4:20 PM
Sian i got alot of questions zz. Msn is a stupid thang yo seriously.

Zzz~ am waiting for 5pm to chiong Lollyz.



12:38 AM
Lol i suddenly wish i didn't notice mc now cause i scared i will go deeper and really start LH then become damn affected in the end. Lol just look at how even h_ affected me yo! It's gonna be the same thing lah confirm. -.- but hahaha if that day really comes that i really get in that deep, won't i be competing with my own YQKJ J? LOLOL joke! Eh no actually i won't, not anymore hahaha.

LIFE SUCKS YOOOO. Zz~

Wise words of renice: It takes youth to dare. 我老了,现在不敢勇敢了 haha!


Saturday, April 18, 2009
11:01 PM
Lol ROFLMAO, reminds me of that mr brown show that mr yow let us listen to, haha! Okay that was random, seriously.

K had oral today, went to mrs ganesan upon recommendation by py. She's really nice, but then it is this kind of teachers that'll make you think you did fine but in actual fact, it sucked. Lol think that was my case lah huh. Walao was stumped at conversation. -.- loser.

Waited for dumb long for 4L ppl to finish their oral and then went to tampines 1. Dumb crowded yo! Wasn't as good as expected and so off we went to tm, to watch 17 again. Oh hotness. ;)

And then i came home and slept and woke up and walao i never felt so bored before in my life lah. K that was exaggerated but hell yo, NOBODY FOR ME TO TALK TO LAH.

K there's tuition tmr and then it's gonna be school again, zzz! Bye. No inspiration today, sad.


pause, take a moment to listen.
12:08 AM

Really. But still, i'm not into the idea of becoming strangers. It just doesn't reflect very nicely yo.


Friday, April 17, 2009 when you look me in the eyes
10:51 PM

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

Expect long post ahead. Many things sparked me off thinking, especially the bus ride home, and the fact that i took the long way home and it gave me time to think more.

Well so today we really handed over. Felt even more SBD than i thought i would. Realised how much more attached i am to this bunch of ppl. But sadly, i didn't get to handover, i didn't get to say jiayou but aiya, what's there to jiayou about actually yo? Hmmm. Idk idk. 百感交集,also don't know how to describe.

Was busy this cca, rare. Didn't have time to really slack in the classroom, was moving chairs and then taking care of casualties and then was busy laughing during games and then was busy rubbing deep heat and spraying salonpas. That was when i felt useful. That was one of the few times i felt useful. Though, i was just the safety officer that once, but well idk how to put it lah. Like i'm just one safety officer out of the many many others and just so coincidently i got to be SO for this pt. Come to think of it, i've been slacking my butt off all my NCO life eh. Last year, collect my money, then hop around trying to find things to do. Then came SSS, and then collect money and i don't hop ard anymore, i just stay in the class doing nothing, nothing seriously. Up till this last cca, then lol, i wish i did more. But OH IT'S OVER. We're really officially secondary 4 students, professional muggers in the making.

And sometimes i wish i was like dumb so i won't realise/notice so many things. But really really, at least i found out on the last cca, then i won't have the chance to abuse my power. Honestly i know i will if circumstances still permit. So i really am very thankful that i didn't find out earlier. But hey i still feel wrong. Disappointment seems the closest description. I mean, this person, who used to be BBF, is doing this. I never imagined it that way. Even if i don't feel anything anymore, it will still be natural to think. K maybe i'm supposed to feel insulted, but nah i'm seriously not. I'm just saddened by the fact that it has reduced to this state. It just keeps me thinking, like why the hell..? Maybe it really transcends all things but idk. The implications, the implications. K none of my business, i'm looking forward. MC said that yo. :) plus, 人各有志, no? I'm leaving it at that. But eh lol i am surprised i didn't feel s. K lah not really, not as much as i thought i will be. In fact, much much lesser. Just. D. But nawl i'm keeping mum.

10102008. Something about it crossed my mind. The situation will definitely be different right now, if not for my cowardice then. Sad, isn't it? I think so too. So i always tell myself, i have no balls but so what yo. I've been asking myself what i would have done, if i could just heck care. Would i still do the same thing? Unfortunately my answer will be no. But well well it doesn't make a difference anymore, seriously. So used to it already. It ain't a negative statement, but, whatever i heard today, made me realise that my humanly worth may very well be zero IYE. Yes then no and it just goes lower and lower. Yes then stick to it. It will seriously turn out better. It will make me feel better. Really.

Had dinner with doo and py after cca. And i just got home at 10 plus. Well i felt 欣慰, that was what the conversation made me feel. I realised that this person is sensible in actual fact. From what he said lah. It really really made me feel we didn't make the wrong choice, seriously. But hey, jiayou. Since you're forced to enforce it, then go on do your best. JYJY. :) comforted, really.

But then, what he said made me wonder what kind of impression i leave in their eyes. I would give anything to be able to read the minds of people around me, but sadly we all know it's impossible.

Hmmm yeah, long post, self reflection maybe. Goodnight, happy HO day. Goodluck for oral tmr ppl. Loves.



Thursday, April 16, 2009 Bang crash boom
4:57 PM
Hey, you piece of shit!

:D me happy today hahaha. It's those enough to last for the day, but not enough to make you wake up and go to school kind. Lol, makes sense? Nawl, i guess it only makes sense to me! Haha.

And i feel so stupid as i looked at the Amath paper today luck SERIOUSLY, i forgot how to integrate, i didn't know how to do so many. I think i only managed 1/2 questions, but i don't even know if the answers are correct. -.- so i did all i could, crapped out some answers and then went to sleep. Oh man i need to start studying, but once again, it is just NATO. Not bad renice, you have learnt not to believe that you will study after putting it off. Lol, joke.

I cannot stand how i cannot stand keeping my emotions/feelings within me, especially all the bushuangness, unhappiness ETC. My mentality is like, if i not happy with you i will tell/show you straight in the face, i will make sure you know i am bs with you. If i don't do that i will feel damn uneasy, like i'm letting it go too easily, which isn't like me to do if you piss me. And that also applies even if i know it won't change a thing no matter how many million trillion times i say. No matter what, i will still crash in head on. Once i'm not satisfied with anything that is important enough to not be brushed off, i will do whatever and everything i can to change it. Even if i know it won't work. Lol jumping into the ditch even though i know i will come out smelly and dirty with nothing in return. STUPAAAAD. Lol, am reminded of the period end of last year when clearly everything was like, pieces of glass shards merely held together by masking tape (aka irreparable, fragile) and yet i still keep trying to piece it all back together even though i know myself all that's happening. 垂死挣扎! Yup i'm stubborn in the wrong way, i rmb someone telling me that, but this way will be the right way in time to come. When something even more worthwhile comes along.

K byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
(Oh i don't know if i have ice mountain, ><)


Wednesday, April 15, 2009
7:34 PM
B. shiatballs i feel like going out for steamboat!

But once again i am broke this week yo, -.- oh did i mention i ALMOST wanted to stock up on _ since monday's the day. THE DAY! But then as i walked through the shelves of cold storage, i realised i didn't have much to spare. ZZ spoiler!

Haha kk i'm here cause i'm kinda bored even though there's the amath test on chap 18 & 19 which involves trigo which i really hate to the core. I am procrastinating :)

KBYE MY FOOD IS REAAADY WOOHOO. WO AI NIIIIIIIII!


unbeautiful no more.
5:23 PM
Hello yooooooo! :D

Heehee i was locked outta the house again today cause i forgot to bring my keys. That's the bad baaad point of not having a spare key anymore. So i fell asleep outside the house (imagine how unglam) until melissa came home. Told her to cab back so i need to pay her cab fare, ZZ! Twice already!

Well physics test was uh, okay i think? K lah though i rojaked the definition for emf and pd, once again like how i did for chem ytd. -.- and my MCQ! Walao leh, i never think properly, if not i sure can get 1/2 questions right de lor. But nvm nvm nvm, think my CA marks are secured-edly good already. I am starting to like physics heehee. Lol k partially cause of tuition.

Went for dental today but doctor still hasn't mentioned anything about removing the braces, AW! Not fair alv and hy put later than me but they get to take out soon. I think hy put later than me? I'm not sure lah. But lol i think i will feel very insecure without my braces lah so nvm. :)

Oh and i was very tempted to buy shoes from mondo again just now. Cause i walked at square 2 before dental then i had the super urge of shopping lah mg. Saw printed tees, but i only had like pathetic $10+ in my wallet so i couldn't buy, wth! :( am determined to save. Very. Very determined.

Laughed alot today idk why. Hah k maybe i know why! Really kinda C actually. Manz it's feeling like how i felt at the beginning when i just started _ H_. BUT NAWL SUCKAAAR! Hahahaha! I swear i will keep mum about this lah. Learnt my lesson already like hey yo, so long liao still say, CHILDISH! So YOU should be honoured you know. :D


Tuesday, April 14, 2009
4:44 PM
:) hello.

Hoho today is a better day. Minus the fact that i was b. bs but ahaha i am back to normal again.

Let's see. Chem test just now i totally mixed up carbon monoxide and oxides of nitrogen (?), everything abt them i rmb opposite. Walao how stupid is that! But nvm. I think i will miss mrs lam after lessons really end. Really admire her faith in people, in life in general? Yes. Oh man i suddenly feel i will miss this school so much, no matter the fact that sometimes i can't wait to leave.

And then Mr hamdan didn't teach today so i spent the period filing my papers, hell yo! But haha there's the sense of achievement when i see my box of papers/files so neat, :D

Supposed to go for english at eagles' nest but then ms koh didn't turn up and all of us loitered around the concourse and then we went for early recess.

K after recess lessons were dumb boring. Seriously bio is crap lah, hypnotising yo. She's almost finishing mol. genetics (is it?) and i don't really get anything. Then chinese, was reading my book so yeah nth much.

Had the 2nd NA session today. And actually one thing he said made me think leh. He said smth like "right now you feel like, oh sad i can't get what i want, but you know it's for the future." OKAY it's nothing sexual lah plox, it's like, i'm feeling what i feel/felt or i can't get what i want now because it will lead me to better things in the future. Well something like that lah. Haha, yup.

And lol i forgot to, or rather didn't really, notice _ today HAHA! Loser. But aye, angle not right lah, must strain my eyes alot LOL. Shall wait for P, then PMY, ;P

Kk i gonna sleep, THEN STUDY FOR PHYSICS TEST! :)

HAHAHA MY AIM, I WILL REACH IT. OR ACTUALLY SUCCESSFULLY PMY ALSO CAN LAH HUH. Same same. Hohohoooo. :>


Monday, April 13, 2009
7:40 PM
Shit yo,

my power's running dry partially permeable membrane breaking down~ Ah! Nvm nvm reconstruction in process, :D

Am supposed to post all the b. retarded pictures we took on saturday but i'm so lazy so another time lah.

Gotta go study for chem test after this post. Apparently, met mrs lam outside the tower hall when i was with py then she ask why i still in school, tmr got test. Then i say i STUDY LIAO. Ahaha loser, big fat liar.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, :( PLEASE DON'T LET IT ALL COME BACK MYGOOOOSE OMG. But seriously i thought about it as i walked ard with py during HP. It really ain't a big deal eh, i mean honestly if you analyse it properly, how many others are there living on the earth yo. How many others are there with more C, greater C! Lol, so no PC then go find a KC! Hohoooo, SD/SC again zz~ -.- BUT NVM YOU MOFO, GO SUCK BAAAALLS RENICE ROCKS.

Bye.


Sunday, April 12, 2009
9:04 PM
Omg stuck btw Devil wears prada and css, zz!



10:28 AM
Oh shit, i went to dl the mv from limewire and then upload here omg. Bless me.


Watched the mv, heard the song and made me feel so _. .. Sian. :/



i touched and i was burnt
9:32 AM
Hello i'm up up up early in the morning.

K so i shall post about ytddddd. :D woke up at 7 pluuuuuuus and then off to meet them at cityhall mrt. I looked like a stupid fashion disaster yo. Lacryma tee with jeans, !? Lol whatever it is we didn't see anybody there so yes, it's okay. It was so super hot i sweat like a mad cow, dripping sweat. And i was wearing jeans, haha think sauna. Three big regrets of my life, not bringing towel, not bringing a change of SHORTS, not bringing my cap. I TOTALLY WANTED TO PACK THOSE 3 ITEMS INTO MY BAG BUT THEN I DECIDED NOT TO, ZZZZ~ so yeah anyway we were slacking so much i even slept for awhile at the amphitheatre though it was burning! Drank 3 bottles of yakult lolol. Oh we lunched at jalapeno's peppers. The carbonara tasted like mummy's version! The white wine smell's very obvious. And they super purposely. Don't serve plain water so we'd buy their drinks. BUT, we didn't haha! And so, we continued walking around, checking the eggs, slacking, going to the loo for the aircon, etc etc. Oh it rained halfway through. Yes. And soon it was 7pm and then off we weeent~

I was late, AND I WAS LATER THAN LOONG, ;) haha senseless. So as i said, loong slimmed down, alot. Hy grew, alot. 17x eh siao siao. >< donate some cms to me please. :( haha so once again we spent some time deciding where to eat, SOME time as usual, stupid ppl. Ended up at cs foodcourt with pepper lunch. And then alv and i were talking about some stuff that hy was too tall to understand. And i realised like everybody has the same impression of _, but i really don't think so kkkk. Up till now i still don't think so. Went for movie after that, idk why but we always watch late movies. All my late movies are always with cz ppl! Lol surprisingly, momma let me watch but i shan't puch my luck any farther next time heehee. Watched Fast and furious 4, wasn't extremely nice my contacts were drying up so i wanted to close my eyes to sleep, but then the sound effects were like bang boom boooooom baaaaaaaang, so loud i couldn't sleep. -.- don't know why but the movie reminds me of Hero mv. Lol. And so sad the hot girl died. Letty! But the sister's hot too, esp at the end when she drive the sports car. Ahaha if i were a boy ! Aiya it's a boy movie, so much cleavage -.- LOL.

Oh i just realised the hero mv isn't available in sg. I saw it on a lyrics website last time but now it can't be played. SAAAAAAD.

Nobody asked you to do what you're doing yo. I never said it was gonna be easy, it will be impossible, i can definitely say now. You think it's difficult then don't continue please, like hello, are you complaining to me? o.O seriously plox, it wouldn't make any difference whether or not you're _ cause it honestly is a big big failure. K lah maybe i'll feel more comfortable. I mean, stop being such a softie. Irritating lah suckballs. ZZ. SERIOUSLY YO, LOOK AT MY FACE, DO I LOOK LIKE I GIVE A DIME AT ALL? GO CRY TO YOUR MAMA YO!

Ahaha i'm a meanie i'm a meanie, :P kk bye!


Saturday, April 11, 2009
11:45 PM
Wah hello,

i finally am resting omg. Reached home at like 11 plus and i am exhausted kk! My legs are aching like no mum, seriously. Kappa sucks, my feet hurt from wearing those stupid shoes. I won't ever wear agaaaaaain, first and last time.

Shall blog in detail tmr, super tired uh. SHF volunteering at sg flyer 9-7pm, slack and bloody hot. Sian, 280508, 5.30pm LOLOL! Dinner + movie with crazy idiots (!). Seriously i gotta say this, LOONG SLIMMED DOWN, MOFO! And hy can be my bf already. I am at her shoulders lah plox, ><

Kk super tired i need to stop being vulgar already. Started using 2 new words, coolz.

GOODBYE GOD BLESS MY POOR LEGS.


Friday, April 10, 2009
9:18 PM
Hello,

i am baaaack. K let's see what i've been doing today. Woke up, sms cz ppl, turned out alv couldn't make it so the whole thing was called off. Almost succeeded, even decided we'd be going ice skating, :( nvm, another time. Feeling depressed, i thought of going starbucks but couldn't too. So i slept, slept slept till 3 plus. Slacked my ass off, 6 plus, church, back, slack again. Am feeling tired again gosh. Eh i will become fat like this. Ate my lunch then went to sleep straightaway. Then i just finished dinner and here i am plopped onto the bed punching keys. Omgness yo!

SHF volunteer work tmr, SIAN. Gotta wake up at 7 plus ah, zzzzzzz~ no red top, so i gonna wear my retarded lacryma tee. I honestly hope i won't meet anybody there.

Ahaha and as i said i was slacking today, i was super bored too so i went to see my pictures. Omg i looked horribly terrible lah! I WONDER HOW _ EVEN _ WITH ME MAN MYGOSH! Like seriously, i thank god that i am what i am today. Even on my birthday, on 25may, i looked like a disaster i cannot believe myself. Am very tempted to post a picture for each event but ahaha i cant, RA RA.

Oh man i am tempted to do a renice photobiography, LOL, but i can't bring myself to. Horrendous yooooo! Aiya k wait lemme decide. ... Okay no i will not create this photobiography.

:) bye!



11:58 AM
Sian, :/

when i woke up this morning at 10 plus, didn't feel like staying home so i made another rash decision, once again, and smsed the cz ppl to go out. Been so super long lah. But then not all replied so i think it's not gonna work out zz.

I realise i makee rash decisions when i just wake up. Lol.


Thursday, April 9, 2009
11:59 PM
Oh dong,

i think i should stop staying up late already. Late nights make me feel super horrible, zz. -.- and i wonder what it'd feel like when i finally find out man! Ahaha, maybe i won't ever get the chance to find out, maybe the results will surprise me but nawl, shall not think that direction. Oh man, :) i like things now, seriously. Back to normal already i feel. Even me i'm back to normaaal i am renice :D the ever so great renice, woohoo~

But sian i feel like going out now. To wander along the streets of nowhere, or go starbucks (!), or whatever lah sian! ><

Aiya i think i will just end up going beach tmr. So super sianballs. But i scared, haha. Very fragile now, BECAUSE I'M JUST LEARNING HOW TO WALK!

And i suddenly think. What do ppl say about me behind my back yo.

With love,
renice.



10:38 PM
Ahaha, shitballs i think i'm super happy, like all of a sudden, but then i also feel that i'm moodless uh.

The idea of visiting the beach tmr is very very enticing. No not to emo anymore, but eh, to spend quality time with myself! :D but then i know i will feel super uncomfortable cause i should be studying for chem test so aiya, SIAN!

And i like xm's blog song. Dreaming with a broken heart. It gives me a feeling, but idk how to describe this feeling. I always get this feeling, but i always don't know how to describe it. I don't even know if it's good or bad! It's like, the same feeling when i hear Ah meng playing in the band when xiao yue and the xue zhang go watch concert. In Devil beside you. Soft rock, soft rock yes i think that's it. It's like on the street, got nobody then you walking by yourself, you know, that kind of feeling yo! Yoyo? Catch the ball? -.-

Just dance yo, come one! Haha. Damn, i want, yearn to go shopping! Argh, i know i tell this to many people but i seriously don't know where all my money go to lah. And it's a wonder how we could go to 18 chefs like what, 2-3 times per week? Where did i get my money from! >:(

Ahh kk i'm done, maybe i'll be back? Lolol i still haven't kicked the habit of spamming posts, sian.


Nostalgia~
5:42 PM
Ahaha hello! :D
Lolz i finally got the chance to go to eighteen chefs after like, a million years. Was walking down hill with py then i said i wanted to go ikea, and then watch movie, then 18 chefs then changi airport. But ahahaha being fickleminded i couldn't decide but aiya settled for eighteen chefs ultimately. Heehee.
They changed that panel of glass at the side, and the fridge was like super vandalised the first layer all gone liao. So sadly, i never got the chance to see what was written on both of them! >:{ but haha nvm, :D we both agreed the service wasn't as good, everything became baaaaad, which is honestly a pity. Hmmm.

Oh yah, we got our exam timetable today, omgness seriously. It's less than 4 weeks awaaaaay leh, sianballs. But eh i am seriously gonna turn into a nerd k, gonna mug my ass off. Cause the feeling of winning is exhilarating. Bloody super shiok. Something like, how i felt when i got 21.5 and this other person got 15 for physics? Hmm yes that's the 快感. Haha.

My thigh and arm muscles are aching, right when i woke up this morning. And actually, i think i know why, yes i know. It was because of ytd! Roar.
And haha i am obssessed with my bangs, heehee. :D Bangs ftw!
K so since i'm back at blogger i shall spam pictures, AHAHA but first i gotta say sorry to NA cause HAHAHA, i am going to post THOSE pictures, :)


Number 1

Number 2
Number 3

Number 4

Number 5

Number 6

Number 1 2 3 4 5 6!
Heehee always rmb, we love you just the way you girls are, even with rock hard hair, :P

I still don't see the resemblance eh xm!


HAHA I LOVE MY BANGS! BANG BOOM BAH! :D
BYEBYE!


Wednesday, April 8, 2009
8:35 PM
My phone's editting function rocks. :)

MY DESKTOP WALLPAPER! :D

:D

Woohoo it feels so great posting pictures. WP sucks at that. Go blogger!





8:11 PM
HELLO! :D

i am back to blogger, hoho. K i'm kinda regretting right now cause wordpress looks more pro, -.-

Hoh nvm i shall just try, :)